it all starts backwards

opening eachother up, claws into flesh into membrane

i’m confused and unstable

and i want you

i want you to lie down next to me

i want you to touch my hair and to tell me nice things

i want you to smile and smirk at me

i want to be with you

i want to take walks in the woods with you

to be embraced by you and take in your scent

to bury my face in your chest and feel okay

i want to feel okay, you’ll make me feel okay

i want to drive until i hit the ocean, than continue on

i want to move around, i want to be free

but most of all, i want you

i want your hand in mine

i want your lips on my skin

i want your fingertips to conquer my flesh

and i want to look into your eyes and read your thoughts

i want to hug you and keep you forever

i don’t know what to do with myself

it’s like the words aren’t there anymore

i feel like a dried up fountain

once big and beautiful,

boasting enormous spurts of water

and glorious promises of quench

and now i am empty

empty of thought

without words, without sentiment or ideas

and, still, without you